Conversations with my compulsive gambling brain

One of our members described the conversation his gambling compulsive brain has with itself like this:

Dialog in my compulsive brain

Compulsive: You are way behind on bills. You need to gamble and it will solve everything because you will win a jackpot.

Me: yeah I wish.

Compulsive: Right?! Come on let’s go. Do you know how happy your husband will be if you win a lot of bill money?

Me: But what if we lose money instead

Compulsive: you’ve lost so much the last few times. It’s definitely time for you to hit a jackpot.
Me: that’s true

Compulsive: Just take $xxx from the bank. If you can even double it that will help.

Me: we always say that but we always play everything back.

Compulsive: This time you won’t.

Me: How do you know?

Compulsive: Because you really need the money.

Me: I want to but I’m scared we will put the money back.

Compulsive: they have that good restaurant you like and it’s free!

Me: I do like that restaurant.

Compulsive: You have to pay back that money you “borrowed” from person before person finds out you “borrowed” it.

Me: we had enough to pay that back 4 times over and we never cashed out.

Compulsive: but we will now.

Me: I don’t know.

Compulsive: remember that time you walked away with $xxxx. You can do it. Just be strong!

Me: yeah and what about that time we broke the gambler’s box to get money out

Compulsive: it was a rough night. You will win today though. I know you will. Don’t you want to get these bills caught up?

Me: it’s gonna take 10 years to get these bills paid off.

Compulsive: not if you win a jackpot.

Me: daydreams of winning big jackpot

Compulsive: exactly! We could pay so many bills.

Me: we’ve won a lot of jackpots and we rarely keep them
Compulsive: we will today.

Me: so many bills. What if we did win a jackpot and we cashed out?

Compulsive: let’s go get bill money.

Me: all these bills are because of you.


These are the thoughts I have to conquer daily. Anyone else?

Founder of QuitGamble Anders Bergman
Anders Bergman
Founder of, responsible for all content on the platform. He is a dedicated problem solver, with 4 years of…Read more